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I don’t know about you, but I have felt all over the place about my people. I have a great time playing with my kids and then, 30 seconds later, I walk away hoping that I won’t see them again until they are 18. I have never needed more space from my husband, yet I dread the day that he has to go back to the office. I feel a need to see my friends, but the idea of making plans feels exhausting. I deeply want to live in community, yet sometimes when a neighbor knocks on my door I want to hide. I find myself texting all of my friends in one day to check in and then the next day feeling too overwhelmed to respond. 
We are in the midst of a series called “How do we thrive in this season of uncertainty?” If there is anything we can be certain of, it’s that we are in the midst of a season of uncertainty. We have spent the last couple weeks specifically talking about how we can thrive physically in this season. I started off this sub-series by talking about the importance of having a “why; without a compelling “why” we are a lot less likely to follow up with our wellness goals. Last week I shared 10 healthy eating tips because, yes, we truly are what we eat. This week I’m going to wrap up this sub-series by giving you 10 more tips on how to thrive physically in seasons of uncertainty. 
I don’t know about you, but I feel like any control I did have (or at least felt like I had), has been lost. I am a planner and usually our schedule is booked a month out at a time. Lately, I’m lucky if I know what the plan is tomorrow. When I was a personal trainer, I found myself saying often to my clients, “There is so much in life that we can’t control, let’s control what we can.”
Believe it or not, no matter how crazy and unknown the world feels right now, there is actually a lot we can control.
We can control what goes into our mouth.
It’s amazing how quickly words can be introduced and integrated into our daily vocabulary. Four months ago I had never heard the term “Shelter in place” or “Coronavirus”. I had never used the word quarantine in a sentence before. Now those words seem to be as common as the air we breathe. A new term has started to trend, “Quarantine 15”.
We would all agree that 2020 has been rough. I feel like each time I start to catch my breath and establish any sense of routine, something happens. I get knocked down, lose my standing and have to gasp for breath. I have felt this way on all levels. We have the obvious: Covid-19, civil unrest and division in the government – just to name a few. Then there are the more personal things.
When I was growing up in the Evangelical church there was a large focus on asking Jesus into your heart. The promised result? A ticket to heaven. Because of that, I grew up with the idea that heaven was this far off place that we would go to when we died. When I pictured it, I pictured angels with harps floating around on clouds. I thought that when I died, I would see this gold staircase leading up into the clouds where Jesus would be waiting for me with open arms. 
Several years ago I was working with a non-profit. We needed to do something different. We needed to shift our programming to serve our diverse group of students more effectively. I knew I had a lot to learn. I did my research and sought out the top experts on diversity and race that I could find. 
Yesterday, I read that a legislator demanded that the government apologize to the suburban moms who were afraid as a result of the riots last week. 
He was talking about me. I was the scared suburban mom. 
The question I left us with last week was, if the Holy Spirit dwells in us and He is the key to peace, hope and Joy – why don’t we always feel that way?
I know, you want to stop reading. I said I was going to talk about the Holy Spirit. No one likes to talk about sin. We ignore it because we don’t understand it. We don’t talk about it because it brings too much shame. We feel above it because our hearts are filled with pride. 
It wasn’t until I dug deeper into the Holy Spirit’s role in my life that I began to understand sin in a convicting, life altering way. 
We are going to take a dramatic pivot this week. Instead of focusing on the ‘why’, we are going to spend a couple weeks talking about the ‘how’s. I don’t know about you, but I would love to know how to have peace that passes all understanding (Philippians 4:7). I would love to know how to consider it pure joy when I face trials of many kinds (James 1:2-4). I would love to know how to truly cast all my worries on the lord because he loves me (1 Peter 5:7). I would love to know how to have hope in the Lord (Psalm 71:14).
Those are nice ideas, but how do we do those things?
There are several things I don’t like about being a Christian. A few things Jesus said rub me the wrong way. Some of his ways are difficult to follow. Some of his teachings are challenging to swallow. But there comes a point in our faith where we have to decide – what is better? Is what Jesus has to offer better than what it costs to follow him? 

Then one day I felt confronted in my spirit with some tough questions from God:
What answer can I give you that will satisfy your soul?” 
What if you don’t ever really know why?” 
Yikes. I felt like God was asking me, “Do you love me enough to follow and trust me even if you don’t understand it all?”


Why won’t God just take this Coronavirus away?” my daughter cried out. 
She has asked that same question amongst sobs the last few nights as we tucked her into bed. And each time, no matter how I say it, my answer is never adequate. Because “I don’t know” is the only answer I have to give her. I can’t speak for everyone, but “I don’t know” tends to be a very unsatisfying answer for people.